Random and boring musings

•  And, just like that, anyplace selling ammunition went kerflooie again.  It's almost like folks are.... concerned..... about needing it sooner rather than later.
• Yesterday I spent time talking to an RN or two at a heart clinic. It occurred to me, on my drive home, that most people don't know when they will die, or what will remove them from this world.  I, on the other hand, now have a pretty fair idea of the what, if not the when.   Sobering thought, which offended me enough that I solved the problem (being sober) by stopping at the whiskey store on the way home. 
• I received what, for all I know, will be my last paycheck today.  It was enough to cover some bills and fill the heating oil tank, so I did those things. No word on being covered for disability yet, which is irksome.  They certainly had no problem removing the fee for it from my payroll in a timely manner over the years, but when it's time to pony up.... not so fast me bucko.
• I figure I'll allow myself the day to feel sorry and butthurt, but sometime right quick I'll need to get over that and find some productive things to do.  At least, productive things I *can* do.  I'll start with dishes and laundry, but that busted hot tub is mocking me, and I have some steel targets to hang and clang out back.
• I had occasion this morning to write the words "Well, welcome to the same outrage and disgust most people have felt all year, watching riot after riot, murder after murder, and all of it excused by the people now suddenly getting upset".  It felt like one big useless 'told ya so', and gave no satisfaction at all.
• On that note.... reminder to self..... no amount of bad behavior on the part of others excuses the same on my part, excepting the final answer.  Be nice, until it's time to not be nice.